Miss You Always

The afternoon sky is beautiful today,
A clear, cloudless, warm sunny blue.
Rain, wind and cold feels more like
What i should see, echoing how much i miss you.

You looked fate in the eye and said "no, one more year,"
Doing exactly what everyone said you wouldn't.
It was only for us, not you, I think,
Trying to prepare us for what you knew we couldn't.

It helps to know that you are more free than ever;
I imagine you flying over mountains and trees.
You can be my special guide when I get there,
You'll show me all God's creations as we please.

We'll swim in the ocean, and circle the stars,
We'll bask in the light of that wonderful place.
And you'll show me your house, and I'll live right next door.
My Angel, will you take me to see God's face?

Till then, I don't know how to move on just yet.
For patience and peace and understanding, I pray.
But knowing that your struggle is gone forever,
I suddenly don't hate this perfect day.

Rest in Peace. 2/17/11

It's been a week since my grandmother died now.  It's been a rough one.  She was one of the greatest people I know.  Anyone who knows my family knows how close we all are.  We get together for every holiday, and then for random weekends with no particular occasion in mind.  We're down at the lake almost every weekend, aunts with nephews, cousins with grandpas, mothers with brother-in-laws.  It doesn't matter, we all fit together.  And Memaw was the glue.

I helped my dad prepare the eulogy he gave.  So many memories; how can you possibly fit someone's life into a 10 minute speech?  My aunts prepared a slideshow of pictures of Memaw.  There were about 5 in a row of me and her together when I was little.  Tough.  But it was a beautiful tribute to a beautiful person.

It's going to be a long time before I remember to say "I"m going to Poppy's," instead of "Memaw and Poppy's."  I really dont mind saying that, but I know it hurts to hear.

My only comfort is that her free spirit isn't burdened by her broken body any more.
I'll see you soon Memaw.