no really, i'm married. what? yea.
my boss addressed me as Mrs. Esco today. whoa. its like...did i not see this coming? did i not plan every part of my wedding since march of this year? haven't i been one big bag of stress hormones for the past month? well...yea.
but looking from the other side of it all....wow. i'm married. i feel like i'm part of this club now. i saw an old man at target yesterday, and i spotted his wedding band. and i wanted to say "yea...me too. just joined. how bout them wedding vows eh?" *elbows in ribs*
not that i'm not completely ecstatic that i can call taylor "husband" now. or that i dont feel good being all wife-y when i wash a load of dishes, or pick up taylor's shoes. and i've probably practiced writing my new last name a million times already. i still suck. its because my first name is all straight lines.
Nikki.
and my last name is all curves.
Esco. well the E can be straight, but i write in cursive, and my cursive capital e's look like sideways butts. can't help it. E's are hard to do.
so my name doesn't flow yet. we'll get there.
so, how does this post fit in with my "in-between" style blog? well, i feel in-between right now. like, in between saying my wedding vows, and waking up one day and not have my heart flip out when i remember that i'm married. i guess when i don't mess up my signature on credit card purchases because i still want to write my maiden *hehe* name, or when i introduce taylor as my husband and don't get a goofy grin all over my face. i'm in-between newly-wedded and ....just wedded. i hope i don't forget this feeling fully. but how awesome will it be to say "happy 5th, 10th, 25th, 50th anniversary taylor." that's what i want. 50 anniversaries. more actually, but 50 is pretty legit.
oh hey, cool fact. the day before our wedding was 2.5 years for me and taylor. kinda awesome.
i'll post more about the actual wedding day later, but i wanted to jot down some feelings i'm having right now. bliss is a good one. good word too. bliss......
joy. peace. love...love love love. child-like happiness. i cannot imagine being more content. that's another good one.
till then, imma go be married some more.
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